A new home, a new baby, a child growing up, ten tball seasons, Michael finding his funny stage voice, so many holidays, a new president, a much loved uncle dying, family get-togethers, the iPad....
Austin has been gone for four years today. Exactly four hears ago this morning, he made choices that would impact us all forever. He took a cab to a pawn shop and bought a shotgun. He went to Walmart and bought ammo and a duffel bag, then back to get the gun. He walked off, never to be seen or heard from again.
Those things listed above? Just a few of the many things he's missed that our family or our world has had happen. What have we missed? Just him. Having him be a part of it all. We miss the son, brother, uncle. We miss what was and what might have been.
Today it seems we're no closer to finding him, but we still will keep hope. We will remember him today, sad for all he's missed but happy and grateful for all we did share.
Birthdays, holidays, his laugh, smiles full of dimples, help with our tech needs, days fishing with family, running through the woods, his easygoing nature, food cooked with love, laughing together at things we couldn't change, watching him with my son, love for our family....
Those are the things we'll focus on today. Not what is missed, but what wasn't.
Love you Austin.
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